we exist

how hard is it to be a girl
i am tired
she is tired
we are always tired
yet how beautiful is it to be a girl
and the bonds we make mending each others clipped wings
when we are expected to fly
what a tragic yet beautiful love story
where sisterhood is sacred
sisterhood is safe
where i can look to my fellow girls for safety
from the people
from the men
who scare me
why does he always scare me
sisterhood is safe
i can see it so clearly
i can feel it so clearly
the warmth
the strong ties that connect us so deeply
like i can feel you and your pain inside of me
without having ever physically felt it
a man will never feel what we feel
a man will never take away what we have together
though they think everything that is ours
is theirs too
it is not theirs it never was theirs
we do not belong to them
we fight and we fight and we exist and we exist
our fight is our story
our story is ours to tell
unedited and unfabricated
the truth
how our delicate wings were clipped
everyday we fight
we feel need to justify our existence and apologize
justify our existence and apologize
I remember
so vividly like it was yesterday
it was yesterday and everyday before yesterday
little girl
apologize for wearing too much
apologize for not wearing enough
apologize for speaking too loud
apologize for not speaking
sorry feels like my name like who i am
i apologize like it is breathing
for so long
i thought it was my fault
i apologized again
it is not my fault it never was my fault
the world failed me
my mother
my grandmother
and all women before us
the world
the men
they whisper in my mind
our minds
apologize for taking up space
so we fight and we exist and keep fighting and we keep existing
we look deeply into each others eyes
the eyes of girls
the eyes of safety
we hold hands
we grow our wings back stronger
we fight and we fight
we exist and we exist

by alexa fajardo

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